I don't know how to express this feeling. It is happening again. I hope he stops. I mean I will eventually get tired of him, won't I? I know myself too well. He's just going to be another victim of mine. I really hate myself for being like this, but I just can't help myself. I just get all excited when someone shows interest in me. But this time he seems just so serious. He's saying that he will definitely come see me in Paris and all the things he says... It just feels like it's not right to play with his mind. I know this time I should stop, but he makes my heart beat. But I also know that this will end sooner or later. He's in Korea, how the hell are you going to do anything. I hate long-distance relationships. I should have learned this by now. I mean please, this has to end... thinking about him. Why is he doing this to me? I mean I was all fine until last night when he said all those things... Oh God... please make him stop, or I won't be able to stop this.

it's been such a long time since I updated my blogger. I have been busy going to different places and meeting my friends and new people. I had to have some time to settle down as well. I am currently in Paris, France. Yes, the city of love, people call it. I am looking for apartments to live and I think I have decided to live with a French family so that I can learn French quickly. They seem really nice and the apartment is big and nice so I think I will settle down quite well.

Right now, I don't really have any personal thoughts that I want to share. I just hope that I settle in quickly and well and go to a nice school here. I will write again when I have something more to say.

from Paris,

Lizzie

xx

2012, the new year is coming. Tomorrow is the last day of 2011, but I don't feel anything special. People have been asking me about my New Year's Resolutions, and my answer was always the same: 'I don't have one.' Actually, before they brought it up, I totally forgot about it. For me, I'm always thinking about the future and my life at present, so I don't really have to make up a list for the new year. But I guess it is good to write things down because I tend to forget things easily. So here it is, my New Year's Resolutions!

New Year's Resolutions (I know, such a cliche.)

1. Enjoy my life. By this I mean, even if life seems hard and terrible and it feels like God hates me and he's giving me all the hard work, just try to find something special every day. Don't push myself too hard. Life really is too short to just be worried the whole time. And besides, all the things you worry about at one point will always be solved if you try hard. So, don't worry, try to enjoy.

2. Learn French. Yeah, I really should work on this one. I am going to live in Paris for God's sake. I need to communicate with others, don't I?

3. Maybe lose a little weight on my thighs. I know every girl writes this on New Year's Resolutions. But that is how important it is.

4. Save some money for travelling. For summer, I would really like to go to Greece or Italy with my friend.

5. Get scholarship or a part-time job so that I give less pressure to my parents. They have their lives and I don't want to always rely on them. Try to pay my own tuition.

6. Hopefully, get a boyfriend and let the relationship last for at least 100 days. I know this sounds really weird, but I haven't had a relationship that lasted for 100 days. The longest one was like 2 months and I start to feel like I have some problems.

7. Get a cat as a pet. A kitten, preferably. I just love cats.

I think this is all I can think of right now. If I think of more, I will add here. I hope everyone who reads this or everyone in the world has a wonderful start of the new year.

Happy New Year <3

Liz
xx

ps. I'm thinking about changing my name to Jacqueline.

Sometimes things happen when you least expect it. I guess that's what people call fate. I have known this boy for almost five years now and for a long time I lost contact with him. Somehow, we both came to Korea in this July, but we didn't even know we were here in Korea together. But a few days ago, we somehow reached each other via msn. Then we made appointments right away and finally hung out today. It was really amazing because he was about to leave for China in four days. Perfect timing, eh? He cancelled all his appointments today and came to meet me. We met at 1 p.m. and hung out until around 8.30p.m. I had a wonderful time. We had Spanish for lunch, then went to this place called 'quiz cafe' and played Wii games and solved some quiz for two hours. After that, we were just walking around and saw many pretty shops and cafes. We got kind of hungry (actually only me) and we went to get crepe. Yum yum~ After that, we went to this cafe/bar to get some cocktail and juice. We talked and talked endlessly for about an hour. It was really good to talk to him again. When we were both in China, we used to talk every single day about everything. We would just joke around and do pranks on each other but the time we spent together was incredible. After meeting him, the feeling of nostalgia came and I could smell the air I used to smell back in China four years ago. I am so glad I could see him before I left for Paris. After we finished our drinks, we went out and walked for a while and arrived at a small restaurant that sell cup rice. We had our small dinner and went back home (he had to go to some place to get some books so we parted early). Once again, it was really amazing to see him. I got some other memory in Korea that I can cherish. I feel so lucky and I am very grateful for everything.

liz
xx

I'm at work right now, but don't really have anything to do. I just came here to replace my manager while she is gone on a holiday to Hong Kong. So, let's talk about Christmas. My coworkers and I were talking about Christmas while listening to some Christmas songs. Then suddenly, this thought struck me: What the hell will I do for Christmas? It is weird, but I always didn't know what to do on Christmas. So it was more like a day I dream of and just anticipate. It is more important before it comes, rather than the actual day. Do you get it? Anyways, everyone else seems to have their plans: going to church, hanging out with friends, and dating. I might as well just go to the church with mom and have some nice dinner out. It's so awkward because our family didn't really celebrate Christmas like others do. My mom, brother, and I are Catholic, but my dad is not. And my brother doesn't even care about church or anything related -he thinks it's the most idiotic way of wasting money to decorate Christmas tree and give presents or write Christmas cards. What a jerk.- so it is actually just me and my mom. I guess I will get some Christmas cards and small gifts for my family. I wish I had actual good plans, like traveling, or decorating Christmas tree next to a fire place. That would be actually awesome. But it wouldn't happen, at least for this Christmas. Last Christmas was awesome. I went to Albania with my friend and spent the day with her family, decorating Christmas tree and having a nice dinner with some wine. I really miss her and her family. I know I am kind of complaining about how I don't have any awesome plans for Christmas, but I will miss it once I go to Paris. I will miss my family so I should spend more time with them. Oh well, I guess I should go back to pretending-to-work mode. Merry Christmas for everyone!

liz
xx

Finally I'm back. Okay I didn't mean to be away this long. I caught a cold and I just thought that it would go away soon. You know, just a stupid cold that involves some coughing, blocked nose, and sore throat. But oh my God, no I completely underestimated the power of this little cold. It developed into flu and all my body started to ache and I also had fever. And when the fever finally left me alone, sinus infection came to visit me. And trust me, it was the worst guest I have ever come across. It stayed with me for around five days without any notice. Thanks to my lovely guest, I had to visit the hospital twice and had to get injection twice. What an affable guest. But now it seems like it is gone. So I will be updating more often from now on. I hope no one who is reading this is sick.

liz
xx

Hi all. Yes I know I haven't updated this blog for a while, but I do have a good excuse. I was sick the whole weekend and Friday. I couldn't even go to work on Friday because of the endless coughing. I even went to the hospital (which I hate with all my heart) and even took some medicine (which I hate even more than the hospital), it doesn't seem to get better. I have a runny nose (gross) and I cough and sneeze restlessly. Last night, in the middle of the sleep, I woke up because I had to cough. It lasted for good three minutes, but thankfully, I fell back to sleep right away.

So, basically, I spent Friday and Saturday at home all day, watching TV or movies in bed or just sleeping. Tomorrow is Monday again, and I have to get ready for my work. I have to go there early tomorrow for a week (that's what my manager told me at least). I hope I get better soon. I've had enough of this cold! Okay, I don't really have anything more to say now. Sorry if I kept you bored. Bye!

ps. Please don't catch a cold like me. Wear warm clothes!

xx

Liz