I don't know how to express this feeling. It is happening again. I hope he stops. I mean I will eventually get tired of him, won't I? I know myself too well. He's just going to be another victim of mine. I really hate myself for being like this, but I just can't help myself. I just get all excited when someone shows interest in me. But this time he seems just so serious. He's saying that he will definitely come see me in Paris and all the things he says... It just feels like it's not right to play with his mind. I know this time I should stop, but he makes my heart beat. But I also know that this will end sooner or later. He's in Korea, how the hell are you going to do anything. I hate long-distance relationships. I should have learned this by now. I mean please, this has to end... thinking about him. Why is he doing this to me? I mean I was all fine until last night when he said all those things... Oh God... please make him stop, or I won't be able to stop this.