I thought I was alright now. I thought I wasn't timid anymore. I thought I had everything figured out, and the shy little me has disappeared. I thought I expressed my thoughts and feelings as much as I wanted. But I realized I was wrong. The shy girl whom I used to be, or thought I used to be, was still here within me, dominating most of my thoughts and behaviors. I still cared how others thought about me. I still got hurt easily. I still was not confident. I just got better at hiding it, that's all. Yes, I do express my feelings more often, I say what I think, but only those things that I know are appropriate, that everyone would like, that wouldn't make me stand out, isolated. I just always wanted to be part of the group. I still don't know how to act when someone compliments me. I still don't know what to do when someone hurts me. I am still the person I used to be. I thought I was confident now. But I never really was. Still, confidence is what I need the most. I cannot blame anyone for that. Even though someone or the environment may have shaped my personality, the power of being able to change is always within me.