After the talk last night, I feel so lost and confused. I'm not sure if I get what is going on, but maybe I have an idea. Is he afraid that he might start to really like me? What does he mean that he was supposed to be emotionless? My head is full of these questions and I have no idea where to find the answers. I will have to talk to him about this when he comes back. But at the same time, I get what he is trying to say. Because me too, I am afraid that I might be falling for him. I mean all the guys I've met, they were not like him. I have no idea what this will lead us but I hope it will make both of us happy. 

Life really is full of surprises..

Most of the people might have heard of this movie I am going to talk about tonight. Except for he fact that it is a Woody Allen film and that there are actresses like Penelope Curz and Scarlet Johansson have participated, the movie is quite alluring that it's filmed in Barcelona, one of the most beautiful cities I have ever visited. 

I first heard of this movie when I decided to travel to Barcelona a month ago. My friend who accompanied me there told me about it and said that I had to watch the movie before I left. Unfortunately, I was too lazy and was busy taking care of other stuff like school and packing, I didn't get to watch it like advised. After a lovely but a bit tiring week with friends, I needed to rest myself a little. That's when this movie came up in my mind. I thought, why not? Now that I have visited the city, and perhaps I can appreciate more and relate to it even. 

It was one of the better films by Woody Allen. Frankly, I liked it much more than Midnight in Paris, which I thought was quite lovely at the time when I watched it. Vicky Christina Barcelona shows three different female characters with different personality and view of life and in my opinion, it depicted them profoundly. They each had their own style of loving and being loved and they were all beautiful in their own way. 

Like always, I tried to find which one I was the closest to, personality-wise. But I couldn't find exactly who it was, then I realized, the whole point of the movie is being a different person and having a different style of life. I cannot find the exact same character as me anywhere else. Of course there are some similarities between people from time to time, but the exact same, no, it does not exist. 

The film showed struggles between reality and lust. What is right and wrong. What to pursue, what you want or what you need. The ending was quite realistic, but I could see that the two girls were not the same people as they were before the trip. Anything you do, you earn and lose something, no matter it's abstract or real.

Overall, it was a good movie after a week surrounded by extremely friendly people who love drinking. It gave me some time to be alone and think a little about love and life. 

Wow, I can't believe I totally forgot about my blog. I think it's been almost two months now, since I last wrote here. What intrigued or reminded me of this blog was my mint tea. After being lazy and doing nothing the whole day, I felt down and dizzy so I decided to take a tea at the balcony, thinking about what is there to think about. Then I suddenly remembered that I used to write blogs while I was doing the exact same thing. So do say thank you to the mint tea.

For those two months I have been not around, I assure you, I was quite busy. First of all, I finished school. Okay that was quite a long time ago. I got my certificate, I went to the graduation ceremony (which was long and boring as usual). My best friend came here from England for five days and we had a blast of time. Then I parted for Beauvais and eventually, Barcelona. It was an unforgettable trip. The people, the food, the beach, and everything, I will never be able to forget. Then, I met someone. Yes, there is always that part. The most interesting thing about life, people. I cannot say anything right now about it, since we have been seeing each other for not so long, but I can tell you, I want to do it right this time. More on that later.

I have also been looking for jobs and finally had an interview yesterday. Things went pretty well and I am waiting for their reply. I hope I get it.

The weather has been quite capricious these days. I see the blue sky in the morning and be all childish and happy, but then later on I see dark clouds coming with the rain and be depressed and complicated.

I suddenly remembered that I haven't talked to one of my best friends for a long time. I have to talk to her more often. I mean we used to hang out every single day for two years in high school. I truly is sad that people change as time passes by no matter how hard you try to stay the same. But yes, life wouldn't be interesting if you were the same exact person you were thirty years ago.

It really feels good to blabber about what I think without caring what others would think. I know there are people out there I don't even know who read this. But I don't really care. I just feel the need to say some things I want. Not that I am scared of actually telling others in person what I think. Sometimes, you can get tired of people around you. Not because you don't like them or they bore you. It' just, you need some time alone sometimes. That's how it works. People are social animals but to be that social animal, we need time to reflect on ourselves and get ready. I would like the tea from the mosque. Maybe tomorrow I will go there and take some.

Mainteant je sais il faut que je apprend le français. Mais on ne peut pas faire les chose on doit faire tous le temps. C'est dûr. C'est la vie.