After the talk last night, I feel so lost and confused. I'm not sure if I get what is going on, but maybe I have an idea. Is he afraid that he might start to really like me? What does he mean that he was supposed to be emotionless? My head is full of these questions and I have no idea where to find the answers. I will have to talk to him about this when he comes back. But at the same time, I get what he is trying to say. Because me too, I am afraid that I might be falling for him. I mean all the guys I've met, they were not like him. I have no idea what this will lead us but I hope it will make both of us happy. 

Life really is full of surprises..