I know I haven't been much of a prolific blogger but there have been so many things going on in such a short time in my life, I couldn't get myself in front of my laptop and ramble/rant about it. Those aforementioned 'so many things' are very important for me right now but they are quite boring so I will just skip to the real reason I have decided to write this entry. As I mentioned, many important things have been going on and with these come the worries. Personally, I worry a lot. I do mean it. I worry about so many things everyday to the point worrying so much makes me worried and frustrated. So it is a vicious cycle. Things come up and I worry and then I worry about being worried too much and then eventually I go mad and my brain doesn't work so I have to cool down by letting some semi-salted liquid out of my eyes. You know when you workout too much your body makes your sweat so that you can cool yourself off a little. It is the same system for me when I get stressed. Before, I used to eat whatever could be seen when I got stressed. But nowadays, it has got worse. I'm even too lazy and occupied to devour anything edible around me. Now I'm digressing. What I am trying to say is that, those important things that I had to take care of, have solved themselves out. Of course I spent hours thinking and researching about how I should solve them, but eventually, they were finished successfully. Think about yourself. It is impossible to say that you have never worried about something in your life. But look, those problems that you thought would ruin your entire life if not solved have gone. You are still living now. Time is all the cure, and there are always way out. Once in high school, I got a detention for the first time of my life. I thought then, my life was over, and all the good universities were going to reject me and I wouldn't be having a perfect transcript. But everything went well, and now you see I have a story to tell. But it does not mean that you can go around mess things up and just stare at them to fix themselves up. You have to try your best not to make mistakes or cause troubles and if you do, you have to fix it yourself. What I am saying is that you shouldn't worry too much like I do. Solving a problem is one thing and worrying about is another. You can trust me, worrying too much and getting frustrated will not help at all in eliminating them. Instead, try to enjoy it. Whenever you have huge turmoils in your life, think about being in a hospital lying down, your body paralyzed and cannot do anything but blinking your eyes and staring up at the ceiling. If you were actually in that situation, you'd kill to have the problems you have now (well I guess the example was a bit extreme but you get the point). So let's all be positive and embrace the troubles with joy and excitement!

This morning was one of my best mornings except a tiny little problem with the internet. First of all, I woke up without getting scared to death by my alarm clock, which means I had had a good sleep. I didn't wake up during the night at all. Just slept through the whole night. Then I came out to the living room and picked a jazz CD and let it play. After that, I folded my laundry and hung the new laundry. As for those who don't know, I just love the fresh laundry smell. It is definitely on my top list. Other smells I love are coffee in the morning, and grass cutting smell. I just love them. Then I had my honey tea which made me a little happier than I already was. The weather was perfect, not too hot but sunny and with cool breeze. While drinking my tea, I read IKEA magazine. I don't know what's up with IKEA, but they make magazines that makes me want to buy a house and fill it with their furniture and decorations. So I took some pictures of the things I liked. Here they are:

 I just love the vintage look of this bedroom.

 It is every girl's dream to have a perfect dressing room ;)

 I love this mainly because of the massive amount of sunlight coming through the window.

This seems like a pleasant workplace!

It's 11.01 am right now and it's only the beginning of the day so I am excited to find out what more is going to happen today. It's the day before my birthday, and I am going out with my friends later. I hope we all have a great time!

xx

Liz

This is another of my happy entry. So here is the news: I have finally finished my French grammar A2 book! I have been holding onto it for about 3-4 months and I have promised myself to finish it before August, but couldn't keep my promise because of various reasons. Okay fine, I will be honest, I was just lazy. I was too busy watching TV series and having great time with people I like. But the point is I have finally finished it. I sat down today at the desk in front of the book with two lamps and a beer, and told myself that I would not get out of the chair until I finished the book. I think it took me about an hour. My neck and back hurts but my brain is full of knowledge and my mind happy for keeping the promise and achieving something. Tomorrow I am going to buy another book, which is a higher level, and will try to finish it before the I take the exam on the 6th of September. I think it is quite difficult to do so, but I think I should be able to at least get some idea of it so that I can get accepted in B2 level. I hope things go according to plan. However, I have learned that when things don't go according to plan, the most amazing or I should say memorable thing happen. Like I have mentioned before, I have to get out of my comfort zone more. But that doesn't mean that I will abandon my life and all the academic duties. I will stay in that zone but in other categories, I will get out there and show the world what I've got and what I can get from it.

Well, that was something full of positive energy. I hope it reaches you all!

xx

Liz

I am finally back home. Where was I? Let's just say that I spent about a week with the person I have become quite fond of recently. I had the most amazing experience while I was with that person: I flew on a light aircraft! It was a four-people aircraft and one of the friends of my boyfriend was taking it out for a ride one night and we were invited. I had never flown on something like that before and was quite excited and nervous at the same time. It was like in movies, they took the plane out of a enormous garage with, apparently, enormous gates, and pulled it on the track. We got on the plane one by one and had the headphones on. Yes, I am talking about those that pilots wear! Then we began to fly. It was just incredible. The sun was setting and the city was lighted by uncountable lights, the sky was full of stars... it was the most romantic date I have ever had! Contrary to my assumptions, the flight was quite comfortable, without much turbulence. When the plane turned around to go back to the airport for landing, I felt a little nauseatic but except that, it was completely peaceful. 

Now that I am back home, I have to take care of some stuff like working on my French grammar, and registering to my course. But, I will be going back again tomorrow or the day after since my vacation is ending quite soon, and I want to take advantage of the rest of it and spend as much time as I can with him. I hope you guys are having fun in your life like me. I will write again whenever I can or want.

xx

Liz 

I don't know how to call myself, capricious or positive. The thing is, I get really depressed and hating my life and myself, which happens occasionally, and yesterday was one of those days. But the thing is after some series of TV shows, a good night's sleep, and the beautiful blue sky with sunshine in the morning, I feel much better. I don't even remember what I was being so depressed about. Sometimes I wish I would just stick to one feeling. Because I can go on like this, being happy and joyful, then one second, something doesn't go according to my plan, I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I guess I am just dramatic.

I was talking to my dad today, and we were talking about changes. In life, there's always changes. No matter how much you try, time goes by and changes are inevitable. My dad is more of a guy who takes challenges and enjoys changes, even if that means that he has to give up everything that he feels comfortable with. But me, I say out loud that I love changes, and new people and new food and whatever new things that I can experience, but inside my mind, I reject them. I want to push new things away, because they are scary. It means that I have to get out of my perfect little world and let them inside, share what's inside. Someone once said, your life starts when you get out of your comfort zone. What am I even doing at home doing nothing? I am young and I shouldn't be afraid of anything. Just like my dad said, even if you fail, what can you lose? Trying new things and failing is what it's all about to be young.

Just letting you know, I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone. Start the adventure. And you should too.

xx

Liz

I did something fun this morning. Instead of going on facebook or watching TV shows, I stood in front of my wall where my map of Paris was and I started to mark all the places that I have been and have had great time. I am not so sure if you can see all the marks, but they are blue and red. I have marked the parks I love, the walks I enjoy, my favorite shopping streets and great cafe/restaurants. Since I was young, I loved maps. I could just sit down and look at a map for hours without getting bored. I guess that's why I have many maps with me. In fact, I should start to collect them! Okay, this could be my new thing now. I'm feeling quite positive today, despite the fact that I am still feeling a little sick and weak and the weather is not very pleasing. I hope you guys find some interesting hobbies too!

xoxo
Liz

closer shots

ps. I think this is the first time I am uploading pictures that I took. Mostly I just use google images. In fact, I was going to use one of the images of Paris map from google, but I decided to just take pictures of my own. It's more realistic that way anyway. Oh and the necklace you see on the left top of the first picture is the first gift my boyfriend gave me. It's from la réunion, where he spent two weeks for vacation. :)

If someone asks me what is the thing you hate the most, I would answer, 'when you are sick and there is no one else to take care of you so you have to cook and eat by yourself.' Yes I am sick now. Or should I say, feeling down and powerless caused by several, but fortunately not consecutive, vomiting, due to my reckless behavior of being intoxicated by something I promise myself I would never put into my throat ever again. Oh well, 'sick' was pretty good expression. The thing is, my dear friend and I had been talking about having a drunk skype session for a long time, and finally we found the time both of us could be wasted without disturbing other people we live with. At first it was fun. Of course, it was. We've never actually been drunk together so it was fun to see both of us making fool of ourselves. I was drinking beer and then I switched to wine. We were laughing, playing drinking games, having a nice time. Then I made the most horrible decision I regret so much that I want to go back time. A sudden hunger appeared, even though I had had my dinner before, and thanks to the alcohol I have put down my throat, I couldn't think straight enough and keep myself from food. First of all, I love food. I love cooking and eating. It gives me joy. Second of all, when I am tipsy, I make stupid decisions, like everyone else, and whatever I do, I try to justify myself. Last night, when I realized that I was reaching for some potato salad I had made for dinner, I told myself, eating and drinking together can prevent me from getting hangover. WRONG. very wrong.   It was too delicious. Or I was too tipsy to stop and save myself from this tragedy I am having now. I had cooked quite a lot, and the next thing I know is I am almost done with the dish. I should have stopped there. Well, something actually stopped, my memory that is. I don't remember what happened afterwards. The next thing I saw was myself throwing up everything I had last night into the toilet. When I came back to my room, I saw the dish was empty, a full glass of wine, and an empty bottle of wine. I just couldn't stand the smell, I had to throw away the rest of the wine and open the window and get some air. I lied down on bed but my stomach wouldn't let me sleep peacefully at all. I had to pay my regular visit to the toilet until around 3pm, and note that I was forced to wake up at 9am. So that's 6 hours. Can you imagine, getting everything that is in your stomach out, little by little, for 6 hours? Trust me, you don't want to know how it feels. After some time, I was feeling better and I got too dizzy for not eating anything. So I took some peaches. Oh sweet god, it was so juicy and tasty. I took two of them, and went back to bed happily. Next thing I know my stomach is doing its tricks again. I had to give up my peaches to the toilet reluctantly. Finally after spending the whole day in bed, staring at my laptop screening like a lunatic, I got up. I was feeling much better and decided to eat something. I cooked rice soup, something my mom always used to cook for me when I was sick. I missed her more than anyone, but I had to do everything myself, since there was no one there. I ate some but couldn't take it anymore so had to stop in the middle. I cross my fingers that I won't be sick tomorrow. And I am telling myself, I will not touch any alcohol anymore. I have had my bad times, but this time, I thought I was going to die. I cannot continue torturing my body like this. I am still young and I need to take care of it, not ruin it. My boyfriend won't be very happy but I am sure he will understand. 

So guys, take care of your health when you are healthy. Do exercises regularly, eat healthy, quit smoking if you are smoking, and please, mark my words, do not drink more than you can handle. Seriously.