With all the things that were bothering me, I needed a change of scenery. I wanted to see something different. So I went on a trip to see a friend. I wasn't away for a long time but I think it really helped me. We talked most of the time. From sunrise till sunset. With a glass of beer or wine. I think I needed someone to talk to. Not about everyday things- but about life. I wanted to really get the things in my mind out there in a form of words. I didn't have to snack all the time because I had other things to keep me busy. It was like I found a peace that I had lost. Her apartment was so quiet sometimes I could hear my own breath. It gave me time and space to think. I walked around the city on a rainy day. The pebble stone road led me to small alleys that revealed tiny vintage shops. I just walked along, choosing the direction as I went. Whenever I felt like I was a little lost, I didn't have to look at my phone to know where I was since I had the big Cathedral as my compass. While walking, I thought about the things I had and what I could do to make my life better. I was a bit scared to come back home and go back to the daily routines. I didn't want to leave. 'But then I cannot always run away, can I?' I thought. It was only a little pause. I had a place to go back to.
I am back home now. I still don't know if things will get better. The difference is that I am willing to give it a try and change it.
xx
Liz
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